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Unimportant regular random prose. I wanted to be a writer/poet while younger, gave up due to lack of skills.

I guess sometimes your selfishness can hurt someone beyond repair. Even you get hurt until you lose sense. Sometimes, one just wishes for everything to remain the same. Sometimes, we neglect things that aren't true, because we hope it will work, because we cling onto the things that are true. Sometimes, we just don't want to let go. Somehow, we just don't want to stop being loved by the ones you love.

Somehow, I keep wondering how my life would be if I weren't as selfish. Somehow, I wonder if it could ever go back as it was. Only time will tell. Yet it feels that nothing ever will. But I don't know if I'll be able to wait. All I want is to help, yet I make it all harder. I try to be happy with what I have, but it never seems to be enough. So I made it possible for me to lose you. My neediness is sickening. My pain almost unjustified. Self-caused if you ask. "You create your own problems" I wonder up to which extent that is true. I guess I just miss you. I guess, I just want you to need me as much as I do. I guess I am selfish. I guess I am me. I guess I don't love you enough to put your wellfare before mine.
I should have let you sleep.
I was right at not believing in love. Even if it did exist, it is never enough. It doesn't last. It does exist, I suppose, but I don't believe in it. Yet I love and I am loved. But is it love? Is it what I seek? (Note the contradictions here)

Today marks a day in my calendar. The day I was hit head-on against reality. Reality is tough, I don't want to face it.

If any wonders, I am fine. Everything's remained pretty much the same. It all depends on our next move, but I lost faith, I lost hope, I lost will, I lost strengh, I lost illusion, I lost... Myself. Now on a journey to find myself ☺️
I know I hardly ever use deviantArt nowadays, but I am thinking on returning once I draw more frequently but I wanted to share with you guys my newest portfolio!!

 :iconbunnyloveplz: :heart:


I know I hardly ever use deviantArt nowadays, but I am thinking on returning once I draw more frequently but I wanted to share with you guys my newest portfolio!!

 :iconbunnyloveplz: :heart:
[EDIT] just forgot to mention today was the last day to for my giveaway giveaway link (:)) details there, mostly custom portrait giveaway. I was so obssessed with that for a while that it really put me down to see almost nobody was interested in joining hahahaha but it surprised me to see my languages teacher joining xD

Hi guys! I don't know if I am ever going to be back here as I used to be since I no longer feel I can create good content and receive good feedback... I am still working on it, I know it recquires time to build the page again but all this time that I've been away I've come to realise that I don't know if I will ever be the same I was before I went away... I hardly really draw, I don't draw manga and anime anymore.

my fb page

Currently I am trying to update my facebook page (even if not as successfully as I would have wanted I am still a bit proud :) )

That time (while being away) I was active on instagram, but I kept losing followers and for the 2 months I was inactive (due to internet problems and such) and the new instagram update it seems really difficult to make myself known...

the feedback here was great (there is no comparison from here to instagram or even facebook, where I barely get a like per pic hahahaha), the people were beyond amazing and I loved it here and that was what encouraged me to retake the English classes that I eventually had to leave.

I really like writing facebook status (es) and people often tell me that I should just make a blog. Truth, I already have blogspot, tumblr and another few, but maybe I might start a literary account here... MY LIFE, FB

Thank you for all the people who have still stayed up until now and I invite you to follow me on my new journey. 
UPDATING YOU WITH MY LIFE: finished 2nd of uni, off to summer holidays and tons of stuff to catch up to. :) lots of love :iconbunnyloveplz:
 #life #journal #personal #facebook #facebookpage #giveaway


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Nuwshi Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks you so much for the fav:heart:
Izunichi Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much for the watch, I appreciate it ;v;
Please take care and have a nice day ^u^ <3333
McMuffinNinjaFluffer Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2015  Student General Artist
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! Birthday cake  icon happy DA B-day :3 birthday cake Happy Birthday Godliek :D Super Fantastic Golden Platter Cake 3D Sini Birthday Happy Birthday Grin :happy birthday: Lily Wishing a Happy Birthday :cakerun: Hide Birthday Emote Blower fella (Party) Me and My Birthday Cake fella's Gobbler (Party) fella Gift (Party) MenInASuitcase Happy Birthday Sini Furry Birthday Hello KimRaiFan's Bday Cake bday emote Give Cupcake - NaNo26 Fella Birthday Dance Birthday cupcake Let them jump out of cake 
Ekkoberry Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2015  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch by Ekkoberry
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Noe16bcn Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Holaa!! No sabia que tenias Una cuenta aqui :)
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